♥ Saturday, December 24, 2005
12:40:00 PM Y
Post title : teRribLy hUrt
♥ I don't know if i did the right thing
teRribLy hUrt
Story~*~ It's been the fourth day tat Jon keep appearing at Jess working place, rental flats..."Can you stop following me?" Jess asked...It's not a pleasant scene to see a guy following a gal whenever she went. "Can, but after you tell me why you left..."Jon said stubbornly. "I WAN TO BE INDEPENDENT!" Jess shouted impatiently...ha~ her head started to pain and dizzy again. "INDEPENDENT,INDEPENDENT other den that wad other reason you can gib me?" Jon shouted back too. " I....I hab no other reason..."Jess said...."Hahax...you still don noe how to lie..."Jon laughed. "I..where did the hell you noe i was lying!." Jess protested. "haix k, k wadeva...but pls tell me why." Jon said gently. But....Jon got stunted...why?....cos she was crying..."DON FORCE ME!!!" she wanted to kept the reason in secret...she don wan him to hate his mother...is this the best way??? or stupid???~*~
.....why moi title like tat? strange yea? Firstly is bcos of the story i wrote, secondly is wad i m feeling now. Ytd i 2.30 am den slp...hahax sleepless nitex again..cos don really feel like i m sleeping. I been thinking...again and again...is there medicine to cure the feeling of "regret", "hurt"...by the past...and this wad i hab thinking :" we can't change how others hurt us in the past, but we can choose to allow the hurt dwell in us, or to forgive and move on..." Ya that's right. Since we can't change the past..that hurt us, why not welcome the future that's awaiting us....I m totally disappointed last nitex...i always tot tat, after a good sleep, i will forget the unhappiness i had...but the thing keep whirling in moii brain over and over again. Jux to hope all moii friends ar happi...
Today, ish moii beloved mum birthday, LOL damned happy cos, we were first: celebrate christmas, second moii mum's birthday. LOL haPpi bIrThdAy mUm!!! Yap...today is moii treat to moii family wahaha. Cool yea.
Lolx today got one Ben sms me...but i got alot of Ben friend..which one issit nehx? Confused..wahaha....now i noe hu is him le..lolx is ah Ben the manager ma. Lolx last few dae, hab a god son...which is Bear bear =) i m happy and willing to be his guardian...Now suddenly one god lao gong...=.=" lolx play play onli..so lo...wahaha but hab to thanks him. Cos lehx, he ah, appeared in a correct time....when i was sadx..lolx make me laugh. so lo hab to thank him. But i will neva admit he is moii "god lao gong". Wahaha miee i hab one "lao po" le..lolx which is...erhem, "me" wahaha, and one "lao gong" le...don wan le...both of them, always keep me happy, i m contented le...and still gt one god son to make me happy. lolx enuff le.
Ytd nitex..a big chaos...but is secret..so i won't tell anybody..anybody who cares for me....sorry ya!
AnywAy mErRy cHriStmaS aNd haPpi neW yeAr tO aLL mOii friEnds!
If this year you had a unhappy year, look forward the coming 2006, start all over again, you'll be happy again =)
