♥ Monday, January 23, 2006
8:50:00 AM Y
Post title : SelFisH
♥ I don't know if i did the right thing
SelFisH
Today is a cold morning, I m shivering Zzz tired and sick, I had lost my voice and so i rested at hme. It has been few week since skool reopen, nth changes. Wad i mean by that,was, the Earth is still turning round and round. Sometimes i quite envy guys, cos after they hab a quarrel wif their friends, they will get bk to normal few days later, wad i mean by normal, means nth seems to be hab happen, they ar best buddy again. Unlike gals, wen they ar hurt, tat's it, scar in heart is not easy to recover.
My friends, all hab change. Wad i mean by change means....character.
Irene is one of them. Well, you can tell mi not to think abt it, but i jux can't....cos she hab been my friends for 7 yrs. It's hard to break the friendship bond. She keep saying she don hab friend....but did she realise ppl around her...? All ppl cares for her but did she noe how to cherish? NO. She jux simply using friends as tool? I don noe....but wad i noe is one of my friend is suffering all bcos of her, i shld thank her? Well everybody hab patience to it....my parents always told mi, if it's is none of ur business well let it be, i oso agree to a large extent. BUT I jux can't tolerate things and unhappiness happen in front of mi. I m not blind. I wan all my friends to be happy. If one day, I can't tolerate her anymore on making any of my friends sadx again, i don noe wad will i do to her...i don wish she is the 1st friend i going to slap on. Hope she wasn't.
Are human selfish? No. this is wad i thought wen i was a kid...but slowly i grow up and find that world is cruel, human ar selfish, they jux hope to protect themselves and hurt others. But wad if they put themselves in an opposite ways? They get hurt too, don't they? The onli human i think of, of not being selfish is our own beloved parents. Cos they are there for us, despite on how busy, how angry they are wen we ar naughty, how sick...they are jux miraculously there for us.
♥ Friday, January 06, 2006
2:51:00 PM Y
Post title : tHruTh iS oUt?
♥ I don't know if i did the right thing
tHruTh iS oUt?
Story~*~And there a rings of door bells..a song of fur elise surrounded the whole hse. Jess wipe her tears and went to open the door and........"Why are you still pestering moii son? I tot i already said very clearly to you abt eveything le. I will still sponsors money for ur study and rental flats....aren't you contented?" The voice of anger came through a women's mouth before, Jess could react and call her "mum". "What ar you toking abt?"Jon came out of the living room and saw his mum standing on the door way....wad happen? Does everything he heard was real? His mum chase Jess out when she was still a 15 years old gal? What is happening??? And his mum was shocked more than anger now....~*~
It's been 4 days since the school reopen le...wad can i say abt? Can't adapt? lolx sure not, cos i already in that school for almost 4 years and 4 days le. Everything starts very fast...teacher ar all now rushing on the O level work. Most teacher is leaving the school on this mid June...why? To wad i noe, the school load in this school is 4 to 3 times more den wad other school have in this area...teacher can't take it, they leave. Simple as that. Life have to goes on, jux like chapter in each book, some chapter will be damned boring, some will be interesting. That's natural, cos you can't expect the whole book, whole chapter to be interesting. Life can't be interesting always. Everytime when i come back from school now, is eat, and revise all the chapter, the things i have studied in school. Cos in jux 2 short period, i can't really catch wad the teacher is saying. SO everytime in order to understand beta, i will revise moii self again, using moii own study method.
There is one quote our principal said, and is the onli quote i found is really meaningful, as he always being sarcastic. "Nothing in this world is tough, It's onli to see you have heart to do it." Yea, no matter wad, i muz strive hard to go poly.
But don noe wad actually happen to me....I don really have the heart to study now. Is like a dead person sitting in class, and hear nth on wad the teacher is toking abt. I always tried to focus, tried to find moii heart back, or moii spirit. Moii heart...i don noe...it seems like i m more likely to hab a empty heart or a confuse heart. Moii brain is empty or lost. The subject that make me most headache is ART. Everytime, it comes to coursework i totally stucked and lost. Don really noe wad to draw. Wad the theme i wan to draw. Headache again.
Now is the 4th day le, you noe...i trying very hard..to get bk the happy friendship i have with Irene...but wad she gave mi was...cold attitude, bo chap...she now is with that ghost gang...why i said ghost...i think is a wu ru to ghost to say them as ghost, cos ghost are much more pure than them...at least ghost don hab a bad mouth as them, don hab a bad attitude as them...they are much more scarier than ghost. Irene is wif them now...well, she like to make friend with hu is none of moii problem...but...Aiya stress ah....Zzz
And, hahax i noe a guy named Nigel =X issit illegal to say his name in the blog =X lolx..anyway, he is a good guy,. Erhem, Caring, Kind, Generous...lolx and he so cute and funny sia...kekex happy to noe him =D
Anyway, hOpe aLL mOii frIenDs hAb hOpe iN liFe anD haPpI alWayS..........
