♥ Wednesday, July 26, 2006
7:00:00 PM Y
Post title : Friendship...such a difficult word
♥ I don't know if i did the right thing
Friendship...such a difficult word
Numb to this word "Friendship"...numb to what they did to mii..maybe i am born to this fate, this is my destiny...i am not pessimistic..i am brave enuff to face the true fact. I am optimistic le..compared to those who cried when their friend betrayed them, i still can smile and laugh wif them...isn't this call optimistic? well maybe this is call "fake"..years passed, everytime i fake myself, ii will tend to forget the true self that i hab...well is this a good thing or bad thing? Dilema.. -.- haix...ii had been "trained" by them to become a emotionless person..no feeling..-.- tired really tired...this kind of friendship...they can smile with you and behind talk so mani stupid things about you...don you feel fed up? Well fine fine, ii don care at all...i had so mani things for them to talk about mii? Tell mi! I wan to noe! U can tell mii, if it's true, i will admit and change, but don ever said things behind ppl back..sometimes, not they don noe...is jux, they pretend nth happen..and wish that their friend wasnt the one who said that....which means..they don wish to face the fact that their friends backstab them...fine...haix...fine...really i feeling very very tired over this things, i feeling very stupid over this thing...cant you guys jux tell mii wad i do, that there is sooo mani things for uu guys to say? Friends..sometimes..they aren't trustworthy as you think they are...and this make mii hurtx..deeply hurtx..can you imagine...FRIENDS around you..turn up to be spy, hey that feeling, great ya? Wasn't it fun? Or was it childish??
Today same like Monday...i went home at 6 pm..sooo tired...imagine...you go to school at 7am...study until 1.55pm..in between 25 mins break...den from 2.45 to 3.45pm eng remedial..den 4.30 to 5.45pm evening class..actually is till 6.30...lucky the tcher still hab thoughts on we students..unlike the principal @#$%!# think we god mehx, pls lor, ask us strive hard for "O" lvl oso not like that de lor...he think we god arh, not tired de arh! DAM HIM! Den...in evening class...totally no mood to do the worksheet but lucky...i managed to focus..sianx..most qns don noe how to do..sadx..i almost cried out..thinking how useless i am...tired tired tired..ltr i gtg do bio..sianx FYS mux finish all the bio..still got one more worksheet....Zzz
lolx den during geography lesson..there is something stupid and blur thing i had done -.- sianx..lolx kkx this is wad happen -.- : today during geo lesson..tcher gave back the focused test we had done during racial harmony ( imagine..lolx racial harmony day..still got focused test after school..sianx) den onli a few passed i think..den tcher quite unhappy..lolx and the most eediot things is..i nv even study for the focused test and ii passed...ii was watching "the maid" in sooyah's hse b4 focused test with the rest of my friend..i jux applied wad ii had learnt in class..and wad i rmb..lucky passed..lolx den tcher say wan to do one worksheet and it seems like nobody took foolscap down, so i go up and took my foolscap and supply for others...and i heard one of my classmate calling mii..i tot he wan foolscap oso..so i jux go up and take my foolscap and when i came down...the guy's friends asked mii for tat guys pencil case..lolx den i sae.."huh?!" oh man...i didnt heard him said he wan his pencil case...maybe ii am thinking on some prob and nv take note..den i distribute to the rest of classmate hu nid foolscap..when i settle down..ii suddenly feel guilty to tat guy..and sorry for not taking his pencil case...den in order to repent my mistake ii go up and take again...-.- den in class the history tcher saw mii go up 2 times..ask mii whether i finished taking wad i wan anot...lolx oh man..dam paiseh lor...den ii faster took the guy's pouch and rush down...durin the journey form classroom to geo room...i open the pouch to see if the pencil case is inside..and dam...inside other den hard disk and wire...NO PENCIL CASE...alamak...den i was like...don noe wad to do...whether to go in to geo room...or go back classroom and take the pencil case...haix...almost wan to cry out..why today so blur....my mind only contained those troubled things tat it make mii...confused...haix...den no choice i had to admit..well ii am the one who took the wrong things...ii should say sorry to the guy..den go in geo room..i look at the guy..and say sorry...i gave him...den suddenly geo tcher ask mii to take the pouch i took from classroom to give her..oh man..i scared till death...i tot she gg to confiscate the hard disk...T.T den i sooo scared...if that is the case ii didnt help the guy to take the pencil case instead...got his hard disk confiscated...den i was nervous and got scolded by tcher...she asked mii..is the hard disk tat impt...god noes...i didnt noe it was a hard disk at the beginning when i took it...den lucky the guy...help mii to tell tcher is misunderstanding...actually i wan to help him take pencil case..but end up taking the hard disk...oh man...soooooo blurr and paisehhhhh lor -.- sianx...haix...thinking all those troubled things really make mii cant focused...-.-
