♥ Thursday, August 31, 2006


5:07:00 PM Y


Post title : ToUching DaY

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

ToUching DaY
Today early in the morning, something terrible happened...but i don wish to write it in my blog.
I went to school with my sis and my dad drive us there. When we reached school, i went to buy water( cos my sis nv help to refill the water) den i went up to the classroom hastily. And guess what...kaox the door is locked....ytd, my friend and ii had planned to decorate the classroom as today is Teacher's Day. today is aces day too...so we nid to bring our bag to the class and assemble at the gallery at 7.30am. The servant opened the door at about 7am ma -.- we onli got 30 minutes to decorate everything tat is expected. Everybody was united..well i am happy xD our class always like tat de..lolx when comes too event..all become so united and always learnt to enjoy the fun. We were late for assembly..oh gosh >.< 5n2 ="P" example ="/">.< eediot ="X" cried ="x" master ="x">




♥ Wednesday, August 23, 2006


9:30:00 AM Y


Post title : FrieNds agAin

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

FrieNds agAin
Everything seems fine..from last friday till now...Last friday..yanling suddenly told mii don quarrel le...and we are friend again...i noe most friend will be stunt or don noe wad happen...why she suddenly friend mii back ya...actually i oso don noe why...don ask mii too...lolx hmmx...maybe there is other reason...and i noe wad she is doing behind thou she is friend wif mii again..but i am tired le..tired to care tired to explain and tired to cry and angry over this friendship...she wan to do wad..jux let her do..lolx she told her mum wad, and her mum told my mum wad...as long as my mum hear le still believe tat i am not tat kind of person, it's fine. So i don really care ^^




♥ Thursday, August 17, 2006


2:59:00 PM Y


Post title : DAM FUCKING PISSED OFF

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

DAM FUCKING PISSED OFF
Today...i was happy..cos i had planned to break all bond i have wif my friend. And for sure! I will never ever contact any secondary school CLASSMATE again...who said secondary school friend are the best tat you ever had...all lied! I don noe wad Yanling wan again -.- ...i am SICK AND PISSED OFF over THIS FUCKING SITUATION! Ytd! She was the one who cried in the hall and during social studies lesson...den Mrs Choo ask her go out and have some fresh air....den she said she wan to talk to mii..so i go out and comfort her but ended up comflict....BUT ended up she told her mum..I black face..and when she comfort mii , i nv reply..WT FUCKING HELL IS SHE TRYING TO DO!? I don noe...i jux noe...i am going to be crazy!!! Den she said shing, qi and her ask mii do not go near Irene MANY TIMES...SINCE WHEN!? LOL FUCKING BITCH! I NV EVER HEARD HER SAY THIS SENTENCE!!!




♥ Wednesday, August 16, 2006


2:32:00 PM Y


Post title : Most Terrible Day in My Life

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Most Terrible Day in My Life
Today was the most terrible day in my life. My world starts to become darker and darker...being silence oso can cause misunderstanding...i don noe wad to do...
Today, Yanling cried...i wan to know why she cried...but i don dare to ask her...during social studies lesson...Mrs Choo ask Yanling to go for a walk...den..YanLing said she wan to talk to mii...i don noe what happen..but jux went out and tried my very best to comfort a friend...bcos i am not good and comforting a friend...never did i wonder she start wif " what do you wan?" I was stunt at 1st bcos i don really noe wad she is talking..den i said "what i wan?" she said " What do you wan? You said bad things behind my back..you tell ur mum wad happen in school and ur mum yesterday stare at me and purposely zhen dui enen." I said what i say? I didnt say anything bad about u lor. my mum stare at you for wad." den she reply"what you said you should know clearly." and i going berserk...tis is the 1st time i shout at my friends...helplessly..bcos wad i said she nv hear into it..i don noe why..she keep saying i got said bad things about her..which i can swear i nv! "Can you do be so suspicious anot. You don even know wad i said..how can uu say i got say bad things behind you." I retorted...and 1st is angry...the conflict start to get louder tat the tcher came out..and ask mii to go in...the moment i step into the classroom..i wanted to cry..what happen today!? Den after tat is math lesson...Mrs Choo ask mii to go out and settle everything...Yanling keep crying and crying. She said since primary school, i always told my mum things about school. Well it's normal..cant a daughter share some happiness she had in school wif her mum? But she said i said bad things about her. Den say since primary school i was like tat, evertime wad happen to school you always tell ur mum..den ur mum will call and scold mi. I Was stunt my tis sentence...my mum call uu? Since when? Den she continued and say...Your sis even wrote in the diary say Can you don do this to my jie...I was stunt again..how can it be...my sis not tis kind of person lor. Den i said..you nv say bad things behind my back before!? Den she ans everybody will say back things about others de ma...lolx she said this sentence i wan to laugh..since she say EVERYBODY WILL den y mux she be so bothered if i did say bad things behind her back. (but i really nv say bad things behind her back) den she at there cry and cry and cry..i smell somethings fishy...maybe she jux wan to act or wad...den after tat...Mrs Choo ask mii to go back to the classroom..well i go in..and actually today got math test...den i try to focus and do the test..but i was crying...i cant even focus..den she came in..after tat she ask shing to accompany her go toilet..
After tat is Art and D and T...i suddenly wan to cry...it seems like the rest of the friends don trust and believe tat i am innocent..Zzz den i go down to the art room...stunt..tired...headache...what can i do? There is alot of question mark in my mind..i wan to ask shing if yanling was alright...but in the end...i didn't...den shiqi was at there crying..i don noe wad happen...den she accompany her go outside...den left mii alone...i cry again...how useless i am...jux thinking tat nobody trust mii...den Sari came...she comfort mii and trust mii..i was soo pleased..and i cried again..i wan to ask her to lend mii her shoulder to cry..but i didnt...den I told Miss Ang i wan to go home..she accompany mii go to the classroom and take my bag..and i ask her..did she ever quarrel wif friends..she ans mii and comfort mii...i go home...mainly is to settle things with mum..i wan to make things clear..whether or not did she called Yanling and scold or stare at yanling..den in the sickbay...i saw Mrs Choo...the moment i saw her..i cried again..i am so helpless...den she talk to mii...i told her everything and wad i plan to do when i reach home..den she lend mii her handphone...i called my mum...and ask her question..and her ans to all question is NO she didnt call to scold her..neither did she stare at her...i am confused...i cried..who i supposed to trust..i told Mrs Choo..and she told mii..Sometimes things hab different perspective...maybe eg a guy smile at a gal..a gal may think tat the guy is interested in her..but to her friend's view..it may jux be only a normal smile...my head start to ache..and i cant do anything to it...den Mdm Chan came..she is my form tcher...Mrs Choo help mii to summary everything to Mdm Chan..and Mdm Chan wan to talk to mii personally...den i told her everything...i am so glad tat she believe i am not tat kind of person..maybe bcos i was librarian since sec 3 and work wif her before..so she trust mii...but wad can i do..it seems like my other friends...trust yanling rather den mii...haiz...so tired...don noe wad to do...den i told her i wanted to go home...i cried too much and now i am having a great headache..*actually today before i came to school i already had a headache) den Mdm Chan said if you are innocent then don think too much about it le ..he wanted to hear Yanling story..den she went to find her..and left mii and Pearl...my dad came and fetch mii..the moment i saw my dad...i cried...feeling very WEI QU...den Mr Gopal and Miss Oh comfort mii..and Mr Gopal talk to mii for a while.. The moment i reach home i came straight to the point and ask my mum again and again...i almost went insane and almost quarrel wif her...den she said don believe go find Yanling's mother lor. ( Yanling's mother and my mum were close friends) den i said fine! Den we went down..and my mum told yanling's mum wad happen..and her mum said "she siao de la...den said everytime ppl look at her she tot ppl staring at her..siyin you don care her.." she sounds as thou the gal who create this prob wasnt her daughter...den my mum said when primary school..she don even noe yanling's house nos..how to call and scold her..somemore you think i dare mehx..den yanling's mum oso side on my mum side...and yanling's mum keep saying she siao de la...i was like...is this a joke for the day...since my mum didnt do this den why she said my mum did...den i went home..trying to had a good sleep...but i cant...cos my headache getting worst and my eyes is swollen and i vomited...when i wake up..my sis came back...i ask her..did she scold yanling or write anything in diary saying don bully my sis..tis kind of things..den my sis said..no, who care ur business...yea this is my sis..she wont even care about mi..thou sometimes..the way she care for mii is indifferent from a human.. and tat is y..the moment i heard yanling saying my sis did tis..i cant believe..
No wonder...when Mrs Choo was talking to us..i suggested to call home and verify with my mum...but Mrs Choo ask for Yanling's permission..and she didnt ans..and i keep wanting to know issit true my mum do this...and keep asking Mrs Choo can i call home..Yanling didnt give the ans...smell somethings fishy? I think she is lying..i don noe why thou..haizzz But she like to be suspicious and this..i cant help..

This is the whole summary about what happen today! Everything is true and i nv add any other own word in.




♥ Tuesday, August 15, 2006


3:34:00 PM Y


Post title : Silence decrease hatred?

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Silence decrease hatred?
Today ii don noe wad to say..but juz in dilema ...don noe wan to retake ma..at 1st when i got back my result i onli think of one option and tat is retake...but today after listening to sooo many comment...i in dilema le..well thou any option i choose is good for mii.. If i choose to retake..den i can get A1 or 2 den at least can lighten my load on other sub...i don nid to focus on my chi tat much even i retake..cos my chi not tat bad la...If i don retake...i can hav more time on other sub rather den chi...and can do beta on other sub too...dilema man..lolx but but but..i went home...ii tink through the night...calling relative for advice...and i make my decision xD i going to retake..i can get A1 or 2 is beta..den if i don play com and use the time to practice the math..i still hab a higher chance to get better grade for other sub! xD

15th of Aug
Today, second times for crying this year...i soooo sadx...sooooo sadx T.T...readers who read my blog..should know who is Irene...she betrayed mii before..i had forgiven her...we became normal friends....this few day my other friends...found tat she lied again...why muz she do this to get attention? Betraying friends...lying to friend to get attention....attention is much more impt than friends? I don noe...she would noe the ans very well....den this few day...my other friends...always talk about Irene...left mii and sooyah...who catch no ball on what they are talking about...but mii and sooyah nv really try to find out wad happen...life stay as simple as possible...so tat uu will live happier...i don noe why...my other friends...the group who is talking about Irene...somebody in the group can be soo happy when talk about Irene thingy..she is so excited..i don noe why..
This few day...after ii am a distance away from them..i become independent..tat's good..at least i can go anywhere alone...without company le..i seldom talk and laugh...seldom talk bcos there is nth for mii to talk..their topic always surround wif Irene...or maybe...bad words about others...i hate..and i would stay a far distance away from tis topic..i seldom laugh...why should i laugh when there is nth interesting or funny in front of mii? It will be stupid or showing i am insane if i laugh like an eediot when nth seems funny..
Today during P.E ...so sianx..haiz...nvm...den during recess..they talk about Irene again..den i jux shut my mouth and eat my food lor...after eating..ii volunteer to buy drink..cos i wan to buy drink too so help others buy lor...convenience ma...after buying...i give them the drinks..and ask sooyah to help mii take care of my drinks...i go wash hand...when i came back from the washroom...qi use the lowest voice say.."siyin is back" den ling say"whr uu gone?" den i was drinking my water..so it take some time for mii to ans her back..den qi say " she go washroom la" den since she ans for mii..i jux nod my head...save my breath. But...during this short conversation...it contained a lot of curiousity and suspect..ii can feel it.. ii can hear it...i...almost wan to cry out...they actually suspecting mii! They suspect ii told Irene what they said...they suspect i very good with Irene...maybe bcos this few day i nv talk to them den they start to suspect...but the truth is..After they told mii Irene lied again...i had already stop talking to her...i don wan the history to repeat..being too close to her is too dangerous...i don wan to be betrayed again...it hurts mii...but wad happen!? The other friends suspect mii... T.T wad the hell is with this world..? Being Silence!!! Being Silence...y y y ?? I shut my mouth up and this is wad i get...Silence cant decrease hatred in this world...talk too much oso can't! Den wad should i do? Dilema...den after recess...i totally wan to burst off...i control..and try to not tink about it...but i cant...when going up to the classroom...i tink should i retake my MT?? Dilema again..with tis kind of things happen...not yet solve...i totally no mood to prepare for O..needless to say..about the Chi..den during math lesson...i suddenly heard my parent's voice..heard them saying "Why muz uu be affected by them? " yes...y muz i be affected...den i make my decision...retake. It is raining during math lesson...rain is pouring..so do my heart...i close the window beside mii and i try to focus...but i cant..when we were doin classwork...i start to sob...den got one drop of tears drop on my worksheet..lolx soo yah who is sittin beside mii saw it and ask mii raindrop arh..den i nod my head..lolx don wan her to know i am crying..but..i really wan to burst out..den i ask soo yah to accompany mii to the washroom...the moment i walk out of the classroom..my tears start dropping..oh man..lolx den i tink she finds something strange about mii..den she saw mii crying...lolx den in the washroom..she totally stunt and scared...maybe..bcos i1st time cry in school bahx..lolx den she 1st time saw mii crying..so she feel abit nervous and don noe wad to do..always pat on my back..and asking mii wad happened and almost wan to cry out too...at 1st...i don really wan to say out de..juz wan to cry out den tat's it..but i say out..i shouldn't hab said tat...but i don really trust her...she betrayed mii b4 too...telling out my secret to ling for more than once...but i trust her tis time..and told her...she comfort mii..thou it doesnt work...cos she knows...how i feel..bcos she is another one who catch no balls on wad the group is talking about...she said i tink too much..but doesnt sound persuasive enough..i noe..she oso don noe wad the group is tinking...den..we went back to classroom..i told her don tell anybody about wad happen..and she promise..den when i in the classroom...ling and shing..i tink they saw mii...thou i already lowered my head..really down until cant see my face..-.- but they still saw it...they comfort mii and gib mii tissue..but i don noe wad to say...my heart is dead to this friendship? I cant gain any trust from them? Den my tears start to roll in my eyeball again...haiz....cry until my head so painx...everytime..when i cry..would ended up sleepin..now..lolx well...i cant slp..the chi tcher came in le..haiz




♥ Friday, August 11, 2006


5:15:00 PM Y


Post title : Special Day

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Special Day
Today is a Special Day xD we getting back our O lvl Chinese result today at 12.10pm xD hah..yd nitex...some of my friends sms mii say he / she couldn't slp cos they are scared...lolx i wonder...why am i so tired and not scared at all -.- i sleep at 9pm xD den early in the morning ii woke up den i feel abit nervous..maybe last year..took N lvl result..i already experience the excitement le bahx..xD hahax today early in the morning..i having a slight fever and great headache and GREAT SORE THROAT xD so i seldom talk today xD den at 12.10pm 4 express and 5 NA student went to the hall to get result..awww 5NA nobody got distinction for Chinese..sianx half..lolx den i got B3 with a oral distinction..den the MT HOD say i can retake cos i got higher chance to get A1 or A2 xD YAY and i going to retake xD heh den after school went to Sooyah's house...so fun today..but the fun ends..when i saw my friend lishing cried..i don noe what happen to her..and my friend yanling nv come for focused test thou she did come to school..i don noe what happen to both of them..and i don expect them to tell mii xD cos i think they don trust mii at all. xD anyway i am happy and tat's enough..don nid to care about others xD




♥ Tuesday, August 08, 2006


11:43:00 AM Y


Post title : Great Day!!!

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Great Day!!!
7th of Aug 2006
Today was a fun yet tiring day..hahax..well today one of my friend nv come..den between 4 seats..got one is empty..and dam girls always suffer menstration painx..well sometimes...den ling and shing seat together..and i was seating alone..aw so painx...haiz..den i was stunting again xD hahax den i put my head on the table to decrease the painx...ling ask mii whether i am ok..i say no..it is sooo painx..den shing gib mii the panadol for the menstration de...lolx eat le oso no use...and today always feel like slping..hahax..ow den during assembly...almost wan to slp..ling and shing too xD lolx but during CME after assembly...well the tcher is in charge of the N level prelim..so he nv come..and so strange..no relieved tcher nv come too..lolx den shing, ling, teng and mii high again ma....lolx we used the tie to make into skipping rope and jump -.- we use the tie to kidnapped each other...and we run along the classroom corridor and walk here walk there..disturb other 5N class..lolx cool ehx..haiz..when we high we will be like crazy..this is what happen when our class gals start to get high xD lolx den after CME is chinese lesson...maybe jux now play too much...lolx ling, shing and mii passed out siax...we slp for the last 30 minutes..den heard the bell rang..YAY school dismissal..but not for us..haiz...2.30 we got social studies extra lesson..den teng come seat wif us..lolx we nv bother to listen to tcher..well not we badx..is..what she taught we already noe..my my...lolx den we start to plan to make notice board..den Alston and i was in charge ma..lolx well Alston did a great job..really... den i was in charge of the rest...aww den from 3.10pm to 4.30pm lolx den rush to the evening math class...lolx den until 5.45 i finally finish the whole paper 1 xD so i go home happily xD

8th Aug 2006
hahax well everybody knows what event took place today?? National Day celebration!!! SO FUN xD our class was the one who start the ball rolling..all so high today..lolx always make the wave until the tcher can't stand it...xD hahax well the upper sec 4 express and 5 Na sit on the gallery and the rest seat in the hall xD lolx well so funnnnnn!!! The Parade was GREAT xD i enjoy it lolx..all wear the uniform so SMARTLY lolx and the band..so great..really hav the atmosphere xD lolx den after the whole concert we have games..xD actually i don planned to sweat today..lolx but they lack of player -.- den my class only few gals sporty..one nv wear PE Shorts..den i was asked to join -.- well great but ROUGH game..it is soccer..wa..lolx the gal hold my hand while i wan to kick...sweat..lolx but we still win at 1-0 lolx it is a games on sec4 gals against sec 5 gals xD so fun..den win a water bottle..lolx den got the souvenir..a cloth.. xD SO HIGH AND FUN TODAY xD




♥ Friday, August 04, 2006


8:49:00 PM Y


Post title : Enlighten

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Enlighten
Today I feel something indifferent about mii...I suddenly feel happier, feel lighten...no more sadness or burden..maybe bcos i see through le..accept the way it is but still go on..really happy..don noe why i still wan to get back friendship..maybe in this world...a person cant lived alone bahx...alone is the most terrible thing..when a person is alone..he/she is trapped in the dark..anw..i will try to post something meaningful in my blog to enlighten others le ^^ ppl... i think sometimes..something is beta not to take it to heartx...and only that you can live happier ^^

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?
Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.U will be sitting around wondering if umeant anything to him/her.Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u went out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to situnder the stars again,talking about everything, your dreams, plans,future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page,u will start worrying if he/she is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.It exposes u to loneliness.It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing ifhe/she is feeling the same is terrible.U feel as if u are being left alone.So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know.if u miss him/her too, tell them.Don't let them wait




♥ Thursday, August 03, 2006


7:43:00 PM Y


Post title : Light in my life

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Light in my life
Today went to school....sooo sianx..don noe why soooo tired early in the morning thou the school had planned to start later at 7.30pm..lolx can you imagine..you study in that school for almost 5 years and you always woke up earliest bcos your school start at 7.05am!!! Crap! Holy Crap! lolx now my last year in tat school..den the principal change the timing...SOOOO GOOOD arh!!
Anw...i so tired today tat i hack to open my mouth and talk..suddenly i found myself like to stunt at the open space..don noe why..haix lolx den went into the classroom my friend..pristal..pull my table with the other 2 friends..and become 4 tables in one row..lolx but the period b4 recess i really lazy to open my mouth and talk lehx..so lor, i diam diam..but after recess..maybe bcos after having my breakfast..i got energy to talk le..den can crap a bit of joke la...lolx so friend if you today talk to mii, i nv ans..really hope you can understand! My friend...well i think i should buck up and not think too much about friend this thingy le..jux treasure them bahx..don care whether they left you alone and talk to other friends..don care whether they backstab or betrayed you..don care whether they got care for you..your life still hab to go on...life is too mystery for everyone..you wont noe wad is going to happen the next day..so do cherish everyday and cherish the one you care!
Today during math lesson..our math tcher start the lesson wif a story..lolx well at least it wont be so boring la..and the story is about Jews!! The morale of the story is The greatest punishment is the ...oh man... i forgot le...Zzz nvm...den the second is Cherish everyday, everyone you think worth it!!
Today went home..listening to the CD i bought den look at all the msg i receive from my friends...suddenly saw a light in my life...
Well i am trying to forget all the sadness..and back to cheerful...my friend is now ok with mii...other den one friend...i don noe wad she wan la...but i don gib a hack on her..jux fuck off man! LOL other den her..i hope other friend treat mii as friend truthfully...and don crap and backstab mii with tat girl!! Smile Always




♥ Wednesday, August 02, 2006


2:30:00 PM Y


Post title : Tired of LivinG

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Tired of LivinG
ha!!!! Today nv go to school, hate school life!!! Cos when i nid to go to school, i would saw them!! Well it clearly shows that i am running away from them, well who cares! I don gib a hack! Jux feeling sianx when i nid to see them again! Life Sux!
Lolx..but you noe..when u don feel like going to school, you go polyclinic, it is cheapest there..den you had to wait for 4 hours! Why so long? Because it it cheapest clinic in Singapore! Therefore mani ppl would go there when they are sick!
Lolx from morning 8 am + step out of the house...12pm+ den reached home...still the same like going to school! Sianx!!! Zzz sooooo tired..how i wish i can jux sleep like this and not wake up...how i wish i can end my life and no more troubles..how i wish...sooo sianx! Being a human is sooo tired..sooo tired..haix...Zzz




♥ Tuesday, August 01, 2006


5:43:00 PM Y


Post title : I WONT Trust Anybody AGAIN!!!

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

I WONT Trust Anybody AGAIN!!!
I am lost in this world, i am shutting myself in this world, why is it sooo hard to be a human!!!! Being a nice person, ppl betrayed you, being a bad person, ppl backstab you..soo what is this? Life is so miserable, if this is really what a PRACTICAL world is about..this is sooo pathetic....
This year...maybe bcos of O lvl, will sometimes feel stressed..somemore O lvl is getting nearer as day passes by...i got tense up, mood swing now and den, shut myself in my own world and being sensitive to any single things..i am going to get crazy...and yet my friend betray me!
Friends! Friends sux, they aren't perfect at all! When you have friends..sometimes you will feel friend as burden, thou sometimes you hab good and happy times with them, and you would always console yourself to think about the good times you had with them...but wad for? Face the fact tat sometimes friend may cause burden in ur life...ur life will be out of rhythm, friend are human too! They can backstab you, betray you anytime if they are unhappy with you. I seen one quote " If friend betrayed you 1st time, it is their fault BUT if friend betrayed you 2nd time...it is your fault!" yea, as you can see! The previous blog i post i got betrayed how many times le? Excluding those little betrayed tat they did and i hack to wrote in the blog...more than 10 fingers! Yea it is my fault! I don noe how to mix wif good friend, i don noe how to control friendship! I always tot that friends will share happiness and saddness wif you! You can depend on them when you are in depressed..i am wrong! totally!!! and i am disappointed by them again and again! Lost in this blood hell world! What kind of world is this!? Is it real that ppl became selfish and cold blooded when they step into this society? How pathetic!
It is sickening, to see friend spying you and tell other friend wad you said, wad you do! I am not superstar! neither an artist! Stop being so childish! It's fine if you tell other wad i said, i am used to it! Used to this life but please said the true sentence i said and don add on those stupid eediot words and change the whole meaning of the sentence and get mii in trouble! I don hab time for any trouble! And other friends..if you gonna believe i am tat kind of person who would said those words, rather believe those people rather den mii..den you are jux an eediot!
Everytime when you don feel like going to school...well mainly is bcos stressed and education..but for mii...i getting tired of school life...not bcos of education i cant cope wif, not bcos stressed...but tried to get along wif ppl..around mii...being fake! I hate it! I hate this kind of life. My mentality..try to control, if cant control den jux "explode" but this few day...i tried to control, try to get back my cheerful self, try to laugh and joke wif them...but i cant...whenever i try to get happy...those unhappy and got betrayed sadness came to my mind..and i am down again..so this few day i become a mute....the only person i will talk to is teacher and is when i wan to ask qns i don noe how to do..
Today...i suddenly wan to cheer myself up..bcos i think...that life is neither too long nor too short for mii...i should treasure...however..my friend hahax my friend...their attitude to me...is FAKE! They cold toward mii..yet still tried to act like they are still my friend...wad for act so cheerful i think to myself and den i am down again...if you feel tat being my friend is so tiring or wad eva reason! Don be my friend..i am happier den...at least lesser ppl to betray me! I don nid any ppl sympathy, i am alone! I love myself! That's all i learnt! I will not trust any ppl again! Other den my parent, siblings and cousin, I WONT TRUST ANYBODY AGAIN!