♥ Tuesday, August 01, 2006


5:43:00 PM Y


Post title : I WONT Trust Anybody AGAIN!!!

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

I WONT Trust Anybody AGAIN!!!
I am lost in this world, i am shutting myself in this world, why is it sooo hard to be a human!!!! Being a nice person, ppl betrayed you, being a bad person, ppl backstab you..soo what is this? Life is so miserable, if this is really what a PRACTICAL world is about..this is sooo pathetic....
This year...maybe bcos of O lvl, will sometimes feel stressed..somemore O lvl is getting nearer as day passes by...i got tense up, mood swing now and den, shut myself in my own world and being sensitive to any single things..i am going to get crazy...and yet my friend betray me!
Friends! Friends sux, they aren't perfect at all! When you have friends..sometimes you will feel friend as burden, thou sometimes you hab good and happy times with them, and you would always console yourself to think about the good times you had with them...but wad for? Face the fact tat sometimes friend may cause burden in ur life...ur life will be out of rhythm, friend are human too! They can backstab you, betray you anytime if they are unhappy with you. I seen one quote " If friend betrayed you 1st time, it is their fault BUT if friend betrayed you 2nd time...it is your fault!" yea, as you can see! The previous blog i post i got betrayed how many times le? Excluding those little betrayed tat they did and i hack to wrote in the blog...more than 10 fingers! Yea it is my fault! I don noe how to mix wif good friend, i don noe how to control friendship! I always tot that friends will share happiness and saddness wif you! You can depend on them when you are in depressed..i am wrong! totally!!! and i am disappointed by them again and again! Lost in this blood hell world! What kind of world is this!? Is it real that ppl became selfish and cold blooded when they step into this society? How pathetic!
It is sickening, to see friend spying you and tell other friend wad you said, wad you do! I am not superstar! neither an artist! Stop being so childish! It's fine if you tell other wad i said, i am used to it! Used to this life but please said the true sentence i said and don add on those stupid eediot words and change the whole meaning of the sentence and get mii in trouble! I don hab time for any trouble! And other friends..if you gonna believe i am tat kind of person who would said those words, rather believe those people rather den mii..den you are jux an eediot!
Everytime when you don feel like going to school...well mainly is bcos stressed and education..but for mii...i getting tired of school life...not bcos of education i cant cope wif, not bcos stressed...but tried to get along wif ppl..around mii...being fake! I hate it! I hate this kind of life. My mentality..try to control, if cant control den jux "explode" but this few day...i tried to control, try to get back my cheerful self, try to laugh and joke wif them...but i cant...whenever i try to get happy...those unhappy and got betrayed sadness came to my mind..and i am down again..so this few day i become a mute....the only person i will talk to is teacher and is when i wan to ask qns i don noe how to do..
Today...i suddenly wan to cheer myself up..bcos i think...that life is neither too long nor too short for mii...i should treasure...however..my friend hahax my friend...their attitude to me...is FAKE! They cold toward mii..yet still tried to act like they are still my friend...wad for act so cheerful i think to myself and den i am down again...if you feel tat being my friend is so tiring or wad eva reason! Don be my friend..i am happier den...at least lesser ppl to betray me! I don nid any ppl sympathy, i am alone! I love myself! That's all i learnt! I will not trust any ppl again! Other den my parent, siblings and cousin, I WONT TRUST ANYBODY AGAIN!