♥ Friday, September 29, 2006


4:13:00 PM Y


Post title : Everything start on a misunderstanding

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Everything start on a misunderstanding

Today was a sadx day in the morning. 1st, ii was so tired that ii cant concentrate in english lesson, jux feel like sleeping. Do you have the feeling of ermx....the eyelid is sooooo heavy that you want to close but you need a hard strength to control it and keep it open? Yea that is wad ii am experiencing in the morning. And after that is art...ii was sooo sadx that ii almost cried but ii control. Ytd i was doing the batik until very late then eat, ii spent soo much time tat i don hab time to help my mum (her hand was injure) den tcher saw the work ii showed her, she was very angry and she scolded mii and the class too....ii suddenly feel soooo stress that ii don noe wad to do...left 12 more days for submission, not 12 more weeks...and she said if batik cannot ask mii to do canvas....canvas...haiz...den ii was like lost? yea the only word describe my feeling jux now was lost....ii talk to lishing the 1st sentence : You buy how much arh? the acrylic. Den she said : don noe, around $28...den my tears almost roll out of my eyes..ii am sooo sadx..den ii faced the other side and don let her see my face..during social studies test, ii no mood to do, so i anyhow copy the ans (it is open book test) den my friend keep asking mii are you alright? I jux smile and ans them...ii don wan to talk much, if not ii cant control the tears that is in my eyes. I suddenly realise one thing. That is: I am still not strong enough to live alone, ii still cant depend myself much, ii am still not strong. I still need friends concern.

Den during recess, ii went to art room and told ms ang why ii am doing so badly in my art, not i wan to but i don hab time to. Den ii cant control myself and ii cried...den she comforted mii and tell mii to do the smallest canvas and den ii had my recess with her. She asked mii what happen to mii and lishing that group, ii told her everything. ii was jux sadx. They cant be there when ii need someone concern. A lot of things happen when ii am with them. ii am scared. my mum injured her hand, ii help my mum take care of babies and some housework, somemore my grandma is staying with us now too. ii was so stress and tired. Tired till ii don wan to talk. Annoyed by small little things. And jux bcos ii nv talk, they tot ii showed attitude and den everything became like tat. Yanling said we are friend back, but still she asked my bro got said her bad words ma? Wad is this? Don trust mii? Den y bother became friends back?! Den ms ang said" don wan to explain to them?" not ii don wan, ii ans...is everytime when ii was finding a chance to explain, lishing show mii attitude. Wad you wan mii to do? haiz...den hab a talk with her, and with her understanding on why ii did soo badly on art.

i was happy, and went back to classroom is math, having to know my prelim result and higher chance to pass in O ii was so happy and in CME wan to do the oral presentation...lolx ii was the 1st one to finish the planning on what ii going to say and ii was the 1st to say. ii got 21 / 25 xD so funny..lolx




♥ Thursday, September 28, 2006


8:28:00 PM Y


Post title : BatiK Day

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

BatiK Day
Ever since ii am no longer with that group of girls, ii feel that ii am happier, though sometimes sadx bcos they show mii attitude(which is ridiculous) because everything start on that friday, that particular friday when i don wan to talk and lazy to talk, they thought ii showed attitude then all give mii black face ESPECIALLY LISHING. Well when ii sit beside her, she moved away and sit with other girl, her action hurt mii badly and in the end she can act like nth happen and still ask mii "we still friend right" ii don noe wad to ans her, her action is cruel to mii and it hurt mii(THAT TIME ONLY now i don feel any sadness towards what she do to mii) ii always find myself cant concentrate and study well with them cos they don even have the heart to study but now ii with other group ii am so happy, ii finally found someone who wan to study like mii. After all this incident, ii had learnt to be independent and not rely on friends. And oso learn to communicate with others group which ii seldom talk to, which was fun. I found myself happier than last time. xD Not feeling left out and do anything as my wish.

Today is the funniest day. I bring back every batik stuff bcos ii plan to do my art final this weekend. lolx but ii do 1 piece 1st bcos tcher wan to see tmr, den when ii was doing, my family all was so curious xD den my mum said one cute sentence "siyin arh, put on mask la, breathe in too manny wax air not good." lolx put on mask...-.- powerpuff girls one lor, den ii will wear xD lolx den my dad said use fan to blow away the air...well ii noe is poisonous bcos now, ii feel like vomitting...*not pregnant arh! lolx sooooo sianx.

Let's count down..3 more weeks? i think so, on the 20th oct ii no need to go to school anymore den wait for the O to come den ii go to school and take O. lolx next week got back all the prelim result..so scary, well ii will update all the prelim result nxt week. Plz wait for that day to come xD den on 19th of Oct ii got science O level practical.. xD soooo nervous siax xD

lolx okie write until here la xD Cyaz All




♥ Saturday, September 16, 2006


11:35:00 PM Y


Post title : Embarrased Day In My Life

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Embarrased Day In My Life
Today so embarrasing and tired...1st is..my god mei come my hse and ii taught her math...cos she don understand ma...den after tat, during evening my mum, mi and my god mei went to my grandma's hse...den ii was supposed to take my god mei to interchange..my little cousin lingling...she like wan to folo mii..den she very noisy, so my mum...pushed lingling for mii to take care...god noes wad happened nxt....when we abroad the bus...she suddenly cried...swt...den most passenger in the bus look at mii...so ps lor..den ii gib her my hp..she shake her head..don wan..den ii giv her my ezlink card..she hold it..den quiet...few mins ltr cry again..omg...Zzz den ii used my fone to call my mum...den my mum said..nvm let her cry for a while..ya cry for A WHILE arh...den reached interchange..she wan to come down and walk..so ii put her down..end up she holding my leg..den ii carry her again...see my god mei went into the mrt station and took the escalator...ii jux wan to rushed hme immediately... den from MRT station till bus stop..she cry none stop and even louder -.- omg..her crying pierce my ear..really! lolx den ii feel so embarassed....cos people in interchange was looking at mii...and their look...make mii feel uncomfortable...swt...lolx anw ii stand at the stop waiting for the bus to come..faster! Den the bus finally come...but when ii wan to go in...she cry even louder and keep shaking her head...den ii said uu don wan to go in? Den she nod her head...zZZz den from interchange...ii walked to grandma's hse...on the way..she keep crying..den ii was like singing nusery rhythm all the way...quite thirsty..den when ii stop..she cried again..no choice..so all the way..ii was carrying her, singing nursery song for her...den she fell asleep...finally...lolx




♥ Friday, September 15, 2006


9:01:00 PM Y


Post title : LosT

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

LosT
2 more months...ii always told myself this. Well partly is to tell myself O lvl is coming, muz be serious...but mainly is to let mii comfort myself...after 2 months, ii can get away from this fcukin skool and friends.
This few days, or can say, after tat incident, yanling matters...ii totally lost interest in gg to skool. It seems like gg to school, will hab endless troubles awaiting for mii. I hate it! My cousin, hahax Sardine, always said...y everytime go ur blog will sure see so many sadx things, so many friendship problems...seriously, if ii can choose, ii wish ii can put in something happy, ii happy, people reading will oso be happy...but this is fate...my life...slowly became quiet and darkness...my only friend is quietness, my only friend is myself..after so mani things happened, after so mani things tat others told mii....ii had lose trust in people around mii, lose trust in any friends. I don trust them like ii used to, ii don talk to them happily like ii used to, cos ii cant...ii cant forced myself to smile, if ii don feel like smiling. This few day, ii seldom talk, and don noe why..maybe bcos ii nv talk...it seems like...people will misunderstand and think ii have attitude problems...or angry...wadsoeva...and hence this happened...my friends, all giv mii face..black face..-.- ii hate to see tat, and ii lazy to tell them, ii jux being tired and don wan to talk..cant ii jux shut my mouth for one day? Why when ii didnt talk, uu will tink ii got problem?? haiz....fine...anw, ii am oso tired over this friendship le. Always being left out, always the one who standing at the far end when the group is walkin. ii hate it, hate the feelings, hate the feelings when at hme ii got some problems le, in skool, friends not there when ii nid them, still showing mii faces, ii am tired le..really ....i hate this life..after 2 more months...ii always comfort myself...my heartx is now burden wif so many things, ii cant say out. No people can let mii trust them totally...ii am in lost...Y!? Fine...fine..fine...ii don wan to say anything le. If this is the case, ii wish to stay silence the rest of my life and only dependent in myself...ii don nid others, my only friends is mii, myself. I feel so pathetic for myself...none of the friend really noe mii well...y? ii hate it...friends betraying uu again and again, backstab uu again and again, find troubles to you again and again...my heartx is now with a lot of scar...and those scar are make by those people...everytime, at nitex..when the atmosphere is so quiet...those scar do hurtx. uu can say, don care them, uu can say tell them uu r lonely, uu don like to be left out, uu can say uu still hab mii...but all this to mii are crap...really..crap to mii...




♥ Monday, September 11, 2006


8:29:00 PM Y


Post title : BaD LucK DaY

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

BaD LucK DaY
Today is the most bad luck day ever in my life...1st my friend asked mii smth during assemly, it is a normal reaction to ans her back the qns...but bcos of answering her back, i ganna caught talking den send out of the assemly hall..lolx tis eediot Mr Wong (little bee, like to anyhow catch ppl...tat time, my friend asked mii for one tissue..and ganna caught by him, go detention ma -.-) den he asked mii to write my name in the file and seat outside...so sianx..lolx den he came out to checked on mii, i stared at him..den when he wan to go in, i said Mr wong...and this is our conversation...
" I nv talk wad, my friend asked mii smth, den i ans her onli."
" No talking no voice. This one even sec one pupils oso noe."
" Den you heard wad i say mehx. you say no voice ma. My mouth moved den uu say i talk."
" One more time go office."
LOL fcuking tcher, this kind of tcher hu onli noe how to use office and principal to threaten student are those useless tcher. Dam him. Den the bell rang, classes coming out from the hall...den my form tcher asked mii wad happened..den i told her everything..den she replied mi wif a , poor thing. lolx -.-
Den is during CME lesson...the Mr Sissy..lolx my friend keep making fun of him..den i was laughing until my gastric pain and tears coming out...he suddenly looked at us and asked mii wad he said jux now. " After exam still got CME" i replied, cos this is the onli sentence i heard...den he said "and?" I said i don noe la, why today all aimed mii siax, kaox. Den ii laugh again..lolx den he said " and prepare oral presentation on topic empathy, Stop behaving like a crazy gal" den my friend and ii laugh even louder..cos my friend said " Yes Mr Teck gor (bamboo stick cos he really very skinny)
After skool, my friend ask mii to go toilet and folo irene they all, den when i go in, i didnt saw my friend coming in so i go out again..and found she disappeared.....ii looked for her for 45 minutes..worry about whr she gone..den ii called her hp..she reject my call -.- i think she don wan to come...haix....don wan to come jux say...or sms mii...y mux lik tat...den in art room, today onli 3 girls and 6 boys...excluding the sec 4 members...den ii start to do my batik...using wax, cos it is hard so i switch to max, for the wax to melt...and ii fo halfway, my friend said wan to go buy water so ii go out with her..when come back, ii continue to do my batik...den the 2nd time..i think...lolx cos i always go out =X den my friend said wan go buy plain water, cos she having sore throat den i nth to do, so i folo her, b4 i left the art room, i switch off the thing tat make the wax melt...den noe wad....-.- we go out buy water...lolx ended up teaching my friend to play piano, Fur Elise. Den when we go back, the wax already harden..so i switch to max again...lolx den while waiting for it to melt, i go disturb my friend and walk around=x lolx den Nora, my best friend, lolx said " hey siyin it is burning..." ii saw smoke coming out..but it is normal de la..den i walk closer..suddenly saw the melting wax boiling..and ii noe..somebody mux hab put water into the wax...and the melting wax...spills out like firework and it spill everywhere...in order to protect others work...ii faster shift away the workpiece but ended up..my hand got scalded by the wax...dam painx...lolx but ii clear up the mess..b4 washing my hand with cold water...arh...so painx...Zzz my hand suddenly turned red..lolx but i didnt yelled in painx..i don noe y...ii onli say...waa very painx...without feeling siax...impressed on myself.....lolx den ii told my art tcher...she said very good, got clear the wax..lolx phew lucky..den my friend and i took pic in art room xD nth to do ehx...den we go hme at 7pm..so tired....and so bad luck today Zzz




♥ Friday, September 08, 2006


6:54:00 PM Y


Post title : WorsT DaY eVer

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

WorsT DaY eVer!!!
Today is a bad, worst, terrible day for mi.




♥ Wednesday, September 06, 2006


8:27:00 PM Y


Post title : TireD arH

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

TireD arH
lolx today is such a tiring tiring tiring day...Zzz ytd i slp at 8pm ouh sooo tired...den this morning woke up at 7am...den go to school at abt 8am den reached school at 8.30am....den i was doing my art work...waiting for my friends to come too..den draw draw draw...find my fringe irritating so i pin it up..den my cute little friend, shing, said..hey don pin up, not handsome anymore -.-...lolx? den the time passed....my friend and ii stunt for few hrs...no inspiration, no mood...so tired...lolx den at 1st, my tcher said allowed mii and my friends to go to orchard, takashimaya, to buy art stuff at 1pm...den she suddenly changed her mind said 2pm...wa lao totally nth to draw...still wan us to stay there for wad....den my friend talk to her...she said no...ended up mii tok to her...den she said she want to see my supporting studies...lolx but my supporting studies at hme...somemore...i onli draw...haben even paste on it...den she said she wan to see my ideas...diaoz.....lolx den she suddenly scold mii >.<>




♥ Sunday, September 03, 2006


8:23:00 PM Y


Post title : Dam Pissed!!!

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

Dam Pissed!!!
I am dam pissed off today and yesterday. After hearing tat my grandma is coming back to stay wif us on Monday, i had a strong feeling of sadness and anger. What are they treating Grandma as? Rubbish dump? All don wan to let her in, in the end she come our hse! WTH, i hate them (my father's side)! I hate ppl hu surname is ZHOU. kaox all chee bye kia siax! " So she wont be bored staying in the same old place, changing is good" KAOBEI LA, fcuking words, say until so nice. Don wan take care say la. kaox chee bye siax, den my day is going to be darkness again, i don noe i can tolerate my grandma unfairness and other characteristic, somemore, ii now oso troubled over friends matter -.- SIANX HALF. I HATE THEM!!!!