♥ Friday, September 29, 2006
4:13:00 PM Y
Post title : Everything start on a misunderstanding
♥ I don't know if i did the right thing
Everything start on a misunderstanding
Today was a sadx day in the morning. 1st, ii was so tired that ii cant concentrate in english lesson, jux feel like sleeping. Do you have the feeling of ermx....the eyelid is sooooo heavy that you want to close but you need a hard strength to control it and keep it open? Yea that is wad ii am experiencing in the morning. And after that is art...ii was sooo sadx that ii almost cried but ii control. Ytd i was doing the batik until very late then eat, ii spent soo much time tat i don hab time to help my mum (her hand was injure) den tcher saw the work ii showed her, she was very angry and she scolded mii and the class too....ii suddenly feel soooo stress that ii don noe wad to do...left 12 more days for submission, not 12 more weeks...and she said if batik cannot ask mii to do canvas....canvas...haiz...den ii was like lost? yea the only word describe my feeling jux now was lost....ii talk to lishing the 1st sentence : You buy how much arh? the acrylic. Den she said : don noe, around $28...den my tears almost roll out of my eyes..ii am sooo sadx..den ii faced the other side and don let her see my face..during social studies test, ii no mood to do, so i anyhow copy the ans (it is open book test) den my friend keep asking mii are you alright? I jux smile and ans them...ii don wan to talk much, if not ii cant control the tears that is in my eyes. I suddenly realise one thing. That is: I am still not strong enough to live alone, ii still cant depend myself much, ii am still not strong. I still need friends concern.
Den during recess, ii went to art room and told ms ang why ii am doing so badly in my art, not i wan to but i don hab time to. Den ii cant control myself and ii cried...den she comforted mii and tell mii to do the smallest canvas and den ii had my recess with her. She asked mii what happen to mii and lishing that group, ii told her everything. ii was jux sadx. They cant be there when ii need someone concern. A lot of things happen when ii am with them. ii am scared. my mum injured her hand, ii help my mum take care of babies and some housework, somemore my grandma is staying with us now too. ii was so stress and tired. Tired till ii don wan to talk. Annoyed by small little things. And jux bcos ii nv talk, they tot ii showed attitude and den everything became like tat. Yanling said we are friend back, but still she asked my bro got said her bad words ma? Wad is this? Don trust mii? Den y bother became friends back?! Den ms ang said" don wan to explain to them?" not ii don wan, ii ans...is everytime when ii was finding a chance to explain, lishing show mii attitude. Wad you wan mii to do? haiz...den hab a talk with her, and with her understanding on why ii did soo badly on art.
i was happy, and went back to classroom is math, having to know my prelim result and higher chance to pass in O ii was so happy and in CME wan to do the oral presentation...lolx ii was the 1st one to finish the planning on what ii going to say and ii was the 1st to say. ii got 21 / 25 xD so funny..lolx
