♥ Friday, September 15, 2006


9:01:00 PM Y


Post title : LosT

♥ I don't know if i did the right thing

LosT
2 more months...ii always told myself this. Well partly is to tell myself O lvl is coming, muz be serious...but mainly is to let mii comfort myself...after 2 months, ii can get away from this fcukin skool and friends.
This few days, or can say, after tat incident, yanling matters...ii totally lost interest in gg to skool. It seems like gg to school, will hab endless troubles awaiting for mii. I hate it! My cousin, hahax Sardine, always said...y everytime go ur blog will sure see so many sadx things, so many friendship problems...seriously, if ii can choose, ii wish ii can put in something happy, ii happy, people reading will oso be happy...but this is fate...my life...slowly became quiet and darkness...my only friend is quietness, my only friend is myself..after so mani things happened, after so mani things tat others told mii....ii had lose trust in people around mii, lose trust in any friends. I don trust them like ii used to, ii don talk to them happily like ii used to, cos ii cant...ii cant forced myself to smile, if ii don feel like smiling. This few day, ii seldom talk, and don noe why..maybe bcos ii nv talk...it seems like...people will misunderstand and think ii have attitude problems...or angry...wadsoeva...and hence this happened...my friends, all giv mii face..black face..-.- ii hate to see tat, and ii lazy to tell them, ii jux being tired and don wan to talk..cant ii jux shut my mouth for one day? Why when ii didnt talk, uu will tink ii got problem?? haiz....fine...anw, ii am oso tired over this friendship le. Always being left out, always the one who standing at the far end when the group is walkin. ii hate it, hate the feelings, hate the feelings when at hme ii got some problems le, in skool, friends not there when ii nid them, still showing mii faces, ii am tired le..really ....i hate this life..after 2 more months...ii always comfort myself...my heartx is now burden wif so many things, ii cant say out. No people can let mii trust them totally...ii am in lost...Y!? Fine...fine..fine...ii don wan to say anything le. If this is the case, ii wish to stay silence the rest of my life and only dependent in myself...ii don nid others, my only friends is mii, myself. I feel so pathetic for myself...none of the friend really noe mii well...y? ii hate it...friends betraying uu again and again, backstab uu again and again, find troubles to you again and again...my heartx is now with a lot of scar...and those scar are make by those people...everytime, at nitex..when the atmosphere is so quiet...those scar do hurtx. uu can say, don care them, uu can say tell them uu r lonely, uu don like to be left out, uu can say uu still hab mii...but all this to mii are crap...really..crap to mii...